prologue

i have not written anything for quite a while. i don't know if i can still write anything useful. this blog was opened because i want to start writing again. nothing worthy of reading perhaps, just something to start off with.

i have not finished one single story in my entire life. come to think of it, i'm not good at starting stories in their glorious beginnings either. i always start in the middle. like now.

no sense i know, but i'm working my way up to it. i just needed a space to breathe out every angst i feel against this fucked-up world. the place i'm in right now is draining me of my talent, my worth, my creativity, my sense of self.

i feel like i'm drowning. it's dark and cold, but i've grown used to it. there's no more pain - because there's no more feeling.

what a way to start a blog. ###