wow. it's been quite a while since i last posted. many things have changed since and maybe, just maybe, i'll put all the updates on my shit here later. right now however, i just need to vent out my thoughts on an article i read about an hour ago:
What It’s Like To Have Never Had A Boyfriend In Your 20s
i read the comments on this article and found myself with my own two cents to share. i wanted to write on the comments section, but i suddenly felt like i was in a sort of AA meeting, only instead of addiction i'm gonna be sharing my own single-blessed pains.
me: hi, i'm the unhinged libran, and i have had no boyfriend since birth
everybody: hi unhinged libran
right, so no. i thought that i'd reopen this blog instead.
What It’s Like To Have Never Had A Boyfriend In Your 20s
i read the comments on this article and found myself with my own two cents to share. i wanted to write on the comments section, but i suddenly felt like i was in a sort of AA meeting, only instead of addiction i'm gonna be sharing my own single-blessed pains.
me: hi, i'm the unhinged libran, and i have had no boyfriend since birth
everybody: hi unhinged libran
right, so no. i thought that i'd reopen this blog instead.
reading the comments, i was
surprised by the number of people that are going through the same thing the author wrote. i myself didn't choose to be single, but the idea of "putting myself out
there" isn't my strongest suit. i've only ever had one suitor back in high
school, but i didn't want to lead him on just so that i could get myself a guy
like all the others, even though i wasn't attracted to him -- so i turned him down. do i regret that decision? nope. he's been going out with another high school friend for
several years now and they're very happy. although once in a while i do have a
"what if" moment, where i think about an alternate universe where i said yes and we hooked up, but it passes just as soon as it comes.
look. i'm a great catch, if i do say so myself. i'm fairly intelligent. i look human at the very least. i have a stable job. i'm generally nice to everyone. i share. i can cook and do chores. i'm not afraid to rough it. i'm low maintenance -- just feed me and i'll be happy. i'm not a picky eater either, though i have to say i'm partial to chocolates and cheese. friends say that i look like a snob at first glance, partly because i'm quiet around people i don't know, but mostly because i own a face with a default mode of 'frown-y'. but then they get to know me and realize that i'm one hell of a crazy cookie. so why the hell are those guys not lining up to woo me? well, they're probably busy with victoria's secret models at the moment.
at the end of the day, i guess what i'm really looking for is that person who would tear down the barriers i built around myself and still accept me. or that person who is willing to
let me in. i'm the unhinged libran, 28, and still not giving up hope that my someone is out there somewhere, and we'll meet someday when we're both ready. ###
